The timer ticks away

Hi guys!!!!!!!! Day after tomorrow shall be my last day in office and the day after my last in MUMBAI! got my ticket today, was a bit costly but can't help it couldn't manage a train ticket this late not even in Tatkaal!
Finally I have finished writing one of the pending blogs in one of my other blogs today and have posted a number of pics along with it!

I really mean to finish a number of blogs those are waiting for me to finish but I guess it would only be possible once I get back. So the first thing I got to do is to get the Internet connection, I would direly need it, I know!

It seems to me that the days are flying and sometimes it slows down until it stops completely...strange thing tie don't you think? For, time runs differently for different people. The same time is very fast for people who enjoys and then it is equally slow for the ones for whom there is sorrow. It is always agreed that time flies when you are having fun slows down when you hate something to do.
There is absolutely no doubt about that! but the time is of such a peculiar nature as such I find that time is of an unique essence of which there is so much subtlety that it is almost impossible for one to perceive its elegance.

But however, I know that this is all bogus and by this time every one would be bored to death so i shall stop here and let it go at that......Time flies and where it goes one may not know......

Bored to Death......

I sometimes whether this inactivity of mine is turning into a habit, I mean I am actually loosing the will to do anything! Though commend myself to this continuous boredom which I face everyday nowadays, and consider it as a test of my patience a virtue which is dearly sought by me.... but things shall change soon enough...or so I hope desperately!

When Gloom Darkens...

Sometimes it so happens that one gets the feeling that one is good or nothing and belongs nowhere; maybe it is just a phase which one should strife to outgrow; as long as it lasts one tends to feel extremely depressed. These feelings occur when one fails someone, one cares dearly for. It creates such a melancholia that it almost reduces one to a great extent it is a time of great personal self, more so if one is not accustomed to get lashed at one's self respect. but the matter is not about self respect either...its just that I guess the sheer inability to meet the expectations of someone for whom one really cares is what throws one into the chasm of depression, the sense of losing, by not being able to live up to some one's expectations and not just anyone but someone who really matters is quite devastating for one's morale. It is at this time when one feels that even the forgiveness would not matter, a sense of being a burden and something which exists only to hinder the way of others, sets in, this is extremely damaging and downright painful.

Only the, hope that one is not completely useless makes one stay sane, perhaps that HOPE is what urges one to carry on, and it is perhaps that same HOPE that maybe, just maybe, one is not completely useless and can come in some use is what eventually returns the lost confidence. This is not a continuous phase but sometimes this phase affects every body's life and although almost everyone finds some way to pull oneself out of this to one's ordinary self, the memory and the feeling of emptiness still lingers on.

The only good thing is it is just a normal phase and each has his own way of dealing with this, and it is but a temporary phase which slowly fades away....But the Pain lingers On.....

Heartache Tonight!

You know, sometimes one can take on the entire arsenal of social ridicule and not feel a single twitch of pain, but a certain well placed word by a certian someone makes it almost unbearable, I guess each one of us has his own achilles heels and each can be so extremely hurt at even a single harsh word that his intellect seems to freeze! This happens the most when one has a broken heart.....

Fresh From My Scheming Mind! Part 5

After everything said and done convincing something to someone is the most important thing that we all have to do.

Let us take my profession....if you can convince the client he will pay more than he should(even in his wildest dreams!), you convince the judge, you will get the order, you convince the people, you become popular and so on....

The best way to successfully decapitate your opponent's view is by agreeing him directly and then actually bring him into an illusion and twist his own words into making the person saying what you actually wanted him to say.

The point is either he will accept it as it is after all he himself is saying it(or at least thinks so!) or he would be so dumbfounded that he at least wont argue with you anymore as you were never contradicting him in the first place, and believe me there is hardly anything more irritating and frustrating than knowing that you do not agree yet you have no way to argue.

The process creates a strange almost magical effect...try it out(if you could decipher what i meant, that is!)

The Slow moving timer...

A gust of wind swishes past the dark window, the curtains flutters in its dark alcove, peep into the room there are three silhouettes to be seen, stirring occasionally, three bodies lay across the room, suddenly one starts moving as if discomfort and reaches out of the cot to grasp a bottle and empties its content down its throat and turns to the other side.

Slowly the sky clears and the early crows start s crowing the three bodies are in the deepest slumber and suddenly an unearthly sound fills the room one of the figures unsteadily gets up and lumbers towards the bathroom in a tottering tumbler......

Thus our average weekday starts.....

The wonderful realm of peace and tranquility is separated from the madness of the day in store, by the weird cacophonic clamour of one of the most awfully "wonderful" invention of human ingenuity, an iconic representative of that infernal quality of humans to make everything more and more complicated dragging everyone(whether they want or not) into the "modern world", where Time Is Of The Essence and NOISE shall remind you of that very Time which you have not!

Just filling up space....

I sometimes wonder what would I be if not a lawyer? I would surely be an artist (of some sort?!) or may be I would be a very second rated literature student...no I might have been a linguist....now that I come to think of it! Anyway I really am happy for being a lawyer and I plan to go into my dream profession soon enough.....anyways that was good actually...I am going to write a bigger blog than the ones I have been writing of late! But I am really not not feeling like writing in fact am too excited to go home! although it is a month away still....

Fresh From My Scheming Mind! Part 1

Do you Guys know about Golda Meier? the former Israeli Prime minister, she was called "the best man in the government" and also "strong-willed, straight-talking, gray-bunned grandmother of the Jewish people", shwe has given a number of wonderous quotes which shows her wit and strength and today's "Fresh From My Scheming Mind" I shall dedicate to this great lady who has taught me a lot!

I love two of her qoutes most

“Don't be so humble, you're not that great.”

the later is the beat and most loaded...

"When peace comes we will perhaps in time be able to forgive the Arabs for killing our sons, but it will be harder for us to forgive them for having forced us to kill their sons"!

Now I am not going to explain this just understand and slowly absorb the meaning of this statement!

Fresh From My Scheming Mind! Part 3

There are many ways to beat your enemies but the best one is by making them your friends.....nah.....I am just talking shit! Give them a serious Kick in the Ass, but always remember keep a cool head(even when you plan t bash him up!) and get him agitated enough to harm you first....



The best way to get him is to show him you genuinely care about him and worry about him but in the process compel him into such a situation that he severely humiliates himself just by eating on his own words.

Dudeism!!! That's the new Mantra!!!

The dudeist bible!

I found my calling and life's philosophy(at least part of it!), the other day, Dudeism is the new religion which preaches just to chill out, learning the virtues of various philosophers across time right from Lau tsu to Gautama Buddha down to Mahatma Gandhi and right down to the modern peace lovers of the sixties era

even Jesus Christ was a great "Dude", in fact the basic essence of Dudeism is that all the greatest men have preached mankind to be relax and shrug it off and they have been saints...Dudeist Saints all of them and now the glorious new order of the Church of the latter day dude comes into light, it shrugs off the rigid chains of age old orthodoxy, the Dudeists believe in letting it go and practise tolerance and try to free the heart of conflict, the leisurely feeling which should be a constant state of mind is nothing less than continuous meditation...

...Initially the Dudeist culture seems to have a loser and nihilistic attitude towards life, a sheer disregard, regarding any higher standards of morality, a continuous lethargic and laid back attitude, may make some people not take their philosophy seriously, but if looked at closely, the attitude of their 's is clearly be seen from their vision of universality "The Dude Vinci" a combination of one of the most prominent Dudeist preacher and thinker and the Vitruvian man, but if looked at from a different perspective, we would able to see the true nature of it's philosophy, the call for universal peace and non-violence is commendable although the problem lies that the perspective is rather crude, but every culture at it's growth stays crude,by crude I mean the way of life of the "American take-it-easiness", but I guess, a developed culture only flourishes out of the ashes of barbaric idiocy and ignorance, after all humans have always had to learn it the hard way, the inherent philosophy is definitely something to be cherished as long as the person can keep his basic knowledge of what is good and bad along with the minimum common sense of how to be a basic human being, but along with that one could definitely have a peaceful life by bathing in the pool of life without any social binding towards which he does not find any attachment although not drowning himself in the crack of sluggish lethargy and a decadent detachment towards anything and everything in life....

...unfinished contemplation about Fantasy

The reason for the existence of a fantasy realm in our life is basically we are tired of the regular world and we need some certain changes, psychologically speaking there may be two reasons for a person to create one's own fantasy world, it may be because one is an escapist, too scared to face the real hurdles of the life and are content in living in the made-up world of their own imaginations, where, everything is prefect and according to the one dreaming it up. The other reason being some people draw their strength from their imagined worlds which not only give them hope and confidence that in the end it would all turn out to be good, the sheer essence of benevolence is also one of the motivating factors of their lives.

Frankly I find having a secret world of your very own makes you relate to the kid that was always living in your heart but was stoked away neatly by the daily and so called "more demanding" reasons of life.

A world when it is created it starts evolving, it reflects what the creator believes and what lessons he learns from life, that is one place where a person can always find safe haven and can hide all his fears and hopes and love and can live the most cherished moments of his life over and over, by doing this he is not hiding himself from the rest of the World, but it actually has the effect of going for a vacation, which, refreshes the self and he is ready to face the sooty and gloomy real life knowing he has the promise of a great sunshine and cool wind refreshing his soul and he can go there whenever he wishes to.... A shining sun on the face; a soft breeze swaying a branch lightly, a wet sunlight over a swishing sea and soothens one as nothing else can and being within one's imagination makes it more effective.......

Look What this guy says about imagination.....Awesome eh?

the Maestros Of the World Wars....Part 1

The most devastating of the wars that purged the world of it's humanity in modern age were the two World Wars. The First World War which started in 1914 and lasted lasted for four years ending in 1918, had bereaved the World and humanity from it's dream of ever lasting peace and the faint hope that humanity learns from it's constant blood shed of past. Thus the triple entente met the Central Powers to decide who would write the future of the World. the triple entente mainly had Russia, great Britain, and France although another major participant was Italy and America had Joined on later, causing a turning point in the War.
The leaders of the Victorious side:

For Russia the last Russian Tsar (Nikolai Alexandrovich Romanov), Popularly known as Nicholus II

For Great Britain there were two gentlemen, who came to the office of The British Prime Minister during the length of the war the first being:

Herbert Henry Asquith, 1st Earl of Oxford and Asquith, simply known as H.H Asquith who served from 1908 to 1916

and then came David Lloyd George, 1st Earl Lloyd-George of Dwyfor, who served throughout the second half of the war.

for France the most Celebrated Leader had been Georges Benjamin Clemenceau, who was also known as the tiger and Father Victory, the rotund old Man of War.

during the late half of the War, Italy was led by Vittorio Emanuele Orlando , the Prime Minister of Italy and also won the title of "Premier of Victory".

lastly Thomas Woodrow Wilson the 28th American President who led The United States of America, who led the country to the final victory.

The other Pole of the World War , which is known as the Central Powers consisted of four major powers, the German empire, The ottoman Empire, the Austria-Hungarian Empire and the Bulgarian empire. The various leaders of the Central Front were:

The Central powers were led by Germany under The rule of Prinz Friedrich Wilhelm Viktor Albert von Preußen, Wilhelm II the last Kaiser or German Emperor

The Kaiser however acted as a figure while the entire war effort and planning were conducted by two of the most powerful commanders of the German empire they were:

Paul Ludwig Hans Anton von Beneckendorff und von Hindenburg, known universally as Paul von Hindenburg

AND

Erich Friedrich Wilhelm Ludendorff (sometimes given incorrectly as von Ludendorff)

The Austria-Hungarian Empire was led by

Franz Joseph I Karl, of the Habsburg Dynasty was Emperor of Austria, the Assassination of his nephew Franz Ferdinand led to the beginning of the War, he was succeeded by his grand nephew.....

Charles I (Karl Franz Josef Ludwig Hubert Georg Maria von Habsburg-Lothringen)

The Ottoman empire was led by Mehmed V Reshad, he was the 35th Ottoman Sultan

Bulgaria was led by Ferdinand I, Tsar of Bulgaria.

Thus were the two fronts that faced during the Devastating World War was fashioned.....I would conclude this portion with two pics representing the Two Fronts....

The first pic shows the leaders of the Central pwers together and the second is the Representation of the Triple Entente, that is, Russia(middle), Britain(right), France(left)......

Fresh From My Scheming Mind! Part 2

The best way of getting out of trouble is to get so many people involved, in the matter that once caught no one can be certain who has done the fault! That's the reason the politicians always walk in rallies, if they mess it up no one can say it was their fault, it is either the public was too unruly in which case the leaders are helpless, or the public was inspired which is no fault of the leaders, but the the highly volatile emotions of the public in general, If you are to be in a trouble, just make it an issue and it is the best possible way to get out of trouble, at least at that point no one can point their fingers at you, as all of them would be involved, just why do you thing the big corporate houses have so many board members and directors?

....this was a fragment of my Gyaan!

Fresh From My Scheming Mind! Part 1

Hey too much work today...It's just that sometimes I really wonder....by the way did you guys know? the best way to say no to someone for someone is to say yes to that person initially and guide him to accept that you are absolutely the wrong person to do the work without missing one beat of enthusiasm from your part! infact Overenthusiasm does the trick!

Disgusted Today!

Today I underwent through one of the wanton need of an Organization which thinks they should discuss everything with it's employees. What on EARTH would I do hearing sales strategies of an American Company who does not have an inkling of wish to come to India for their clients and would always like to use their Indian Office as a back office and does not even have a sales department out here? and that too for a solid hour and a half! What is more, I actually saw people veru interesting about hearing these atleast they asked a number of questions(and I am sure some will be sending me a mail containing an even fuller details regarding these strategies one of these days!) These people are so vain, I tell you and it is all done for demonstarting increased involvement and also a way of getting appraisal...maybe!

However I am getting sick and tired of this and seriously speaking i really need to write about something else and posting these obviously boring blogs!...........

I guess I"ll write something about books tomorrow(if I get the time that is!) It's been long since I have given any thoughts to the works of Michael Moorcock....hmm..now that's a thought...Corum,Hawkmoon...etc

Anytime is Nap Time!!!

Yep you heard it! From School to College to Office I have this very bad habit of falling asleep at the oddest possible times, whenever things are moving slow or I am feeling bored (almost always) I confidently go to sleep. It is, as if, almost an overpowering effect comes over me and literally drags me into the deepest slumber, I actually dream during some of these naps.

I remember all too well, as many of my friends would too, during college many a periods passed when Poonam or Arindam or Binota (my friends) poked me up so I could answer my roll call and I would do it and turned the other way to settle down more comfortably in the nap I had been enjoying for the past hour or so. The same thing happens at the Office, after lunch like a Bengali, my instinct remains true to my race, that is, my entire being beckons me to gently drift into a comforting siesta and I occasionally wake up with almost all my department standing on their toes straining to take a look at me peacefully sleeping, this is even when I have work to do and might have a deadline to meet! But the reason for my dosing off to oblivion remains almost the same, it is my body's response towards one my most hated things, disinterest, whenever I lose interest on something I tend to dose off, I have always noticed.

But, I still can't explain the reason of another type of nap I sometimes get, sometimes when I am relaxing, it so happens whenever I do get interested, I tend to go to fall asleep! People usually read boring stuff to help them sleep, for me, however, give me a nail biting thriller any day, given a boring novel, I shall stay awake for hours on end and might even finish of the entire boring material before I actually get some sleep!

Picture this:

I was at New empire (that's a movie hall) watching Bourne Ultimatum.....remember the scene where Bourne follows the assassin through the windows of Istanbul(I am not sure of the place's name)? as they start jumping from window to window, doing death defying stunts, expecting, that at least the viewers would stay interested(most of them were holding there breath actually) what did I do?I fell asleep and not just that, I actually got up when I was pushed by Poo and Ard to get out of the Hall! Same thing happened with Mission Impossible Three, I was verbally molested by Suro and Nandy(both die hard MI fans by the way)!

Talk about books, was reading Bankim Chandra's Raj Shingha, Princess Rupmati the princess is being taken away, Manicklal has already joined the Mogul army to take the princess away to safety when the assault starts, the army has entered the narrow pass, overhead the rajputs are ready to attack; the promise of a very entertaining and bloody battle is on the call... what happens to me? My head slowly starts nodding, my eyes becomes smaller and smaller, the heavy book slides slowly out of my loosening grips, onto my chest and the very soft and discreet roar of my nose could be faintly heard, as I, dose off to a surprisingly tiring sleep! for an hour or two!

I could never forgive myself for letting me miss out such wonderful moments of my life; for not letting me watch myself enjoying either a good movie or a good book!

Well I guess I shall continue this I don't know how long while I strife to keep myself awake during some of the most interesting times of my life!(I need not worry about the boring parts as I already would be happily and peacefully sleeping away!)

I just hope things will change for better I shall have my "Awakening"(pun seriously intended!)

My Birthday's Coming!!! I will be...Oh! Forget it!

Well... Coming Sunday is my Lil ol' B'day! They say I"ll be ...what...24? or is it 23+ it may even be 25+ or 24+......?Oh! Forget it!

Really, I honestly do not get the hang of this. Whenever I try to calculate my age, one of the four ladies of my life never fails to confuse me......
How on earth do they calculate it? At first I am of a certain age(of which I am not at all sure of!) then after a few days, I have an entirely different age with a "+" on it and then after numerous calculations when I finally come close to get the right answer,the year's over and it starts all over again!



But luckily the four ladies in my life, albeit, my mom, her mom, my dad's mom(God rest her soul) and my Girl Friend always manage to get my age right somehow, and I have asked them separately(to find out whether this is all an elaborate prank they play, just to annoy me) and they have always kept absolute parity with each other's calculations!!



Usually, I don't bother too much about my age or how old I am or would be...but you need it when you fill up forms, for crying out loud! I mean, can you believe what a fool I would look, if I find out in the middle of an interview, that I have been happily telling them my wrong age all along just because I couldn't calculate it? Where on Earth would my Competency quotient go to?



No, I possibly can't take the risk, thus, I boldly write(after hours of calculations, preferably with a calculator and pen paper by my side, just in case!) my age, as calculated by myself! Oh! That day I was really proud of myself! why do I need anybody to calculate my own age for me, why would I need anybody for anything for that matter? I was perfectly capable of supporting myself!

I was the monarch of all I surveyed and my right there was none to dispute!



Later, I found, I had been wrong about my age,and, as someone smilingly(I didn't see his face, I was just too ashamed, to meet his eyes!) pointed out to me, that the girls have been right all along!



I don't give much to the age factor, really I don't see the point, like they say, why celebrate? After all,you loose another year of your life! And you are closer to your death by another year.........!

........Also because I still can't calculate my true age...but I have the girls for that, they will do it for me!

So....without further delay.....



I wish a Very Happy Birthday to Me!.....



May all the four girls(although not the third!), stay in their perfect health and continue reminding me of my true age!



But most importantly, may I always stay a kid at heart, no matter what they say!

That's For Me!

Musings of an employed one

"I have got great job!"

That is what people say when, they join a new job but as time passes the answers become more and more grudging

"Everything is OK but if I had a little more chance to grow..."; "It would be great if the company plans to diversify in the finance sector after all that's where my real expertise lie..."; "but it's still a living, a good one ...I guess"

Give a few more days then the statements get further modified

"Damn it! I have to get my ass into that goddamn office and have to slog through those goddamn files just to earn a pathetic existence!"; "Oh No! Today's Thursday! Two more days to go before I can shut out those dumb faces from that hole of an office!”; “Why me? What did I do to deserve such an awful office?”

However, not everyone is like that every now and then we come across people saying, "Well...it doesn't pay much but it’s a life and I definitely can grow here and...Well, what do you know? I quite love my job!" and this even after the statutory period of initial affair with one's job has long expired.

In fact it seems it is merely perceptional discrepancies as to whether one likes his job or not.
It is sometimes confusing, if one has to do something for the larger portion of one's life why not do something that one actually cherishes?

Then it strikes that there are unforeseen situations which constitutes the hurdles of this race known in the popular culture as life. One may want to do something and might end up doing something completely different for the rest of one's life and can do nothing else but either wonder how would things turn out if he could actually pursue his dream or for the lesser knowledgeable people who have no idea as to what or why they want anything in there life go around just being sour at people.

It pays to muse sometimes whether one has taken the right path in one's life, then it strikes, life has just begun...